You Gotta Know When To Hold 'Em And Know When To Fold 'Em

Since my last entry I haven't been as sure as I thought I was. I guess when I run off at the mouth I ought to be able to back it up with my actions. I have been put to the test and failed miserably. I'm kind of retreating and licking my wounds right now. This is probably more of a confession to myself more than anything. You know what though...I'm NOT staying here! I'm gonna get back up and dust myself off and get moving again on the path that I KNOW I am to be on. The hardest part about failure is it tends to hold you captive. It's like it gets stuck to you for a while before you're able to completely shake it off. That's where whomever is reading this comes into play. I sure could use your prayers.

What's REALLY Important

Being out here in Denver all by myself with no former family or friends has allowed me to experience real freedom. The ability to choose what I want to do and who I want to do it with is completely up to me. You know what I have found out? Nothing has changed from when I did have family and friends around! If anything, it has been my personal challenge to choose who I want to be. I have been given a rare opportunity. I am getting a "redo" in life. I have really come to find out who and what is and isn't important. Believe me, I and the Lord know my temptations but I also know that when I am weak HE is strong. Any good thing that I am is because of Him and anything not so good is simply me. I often say that if I acted on my own I would be a mess. I am so thankful for God's provision, direction, and strength but most importantly His love. I feel so small and unimportant in this big city but for some reason when God looks down and sees me He still chooses to love me. It's far beyond my little mind to comprehend. My hope is that I become smaller so that He will become bigger!